why is there such a deep incongruity
between what is said and what i think
and this inept imaginative flesh fabricating stories
where events have gone unlike what has happened
how do i correct a flaw that i can't name
and stop hurting everyone around me because
i can't fucking say anything that makes sense ever
how do i explain to myself that people
have their own minds and act not like my
delusional mind estimates things to go
and instead receive the nonsense signals
that i vomit out like a slug impaled on a rusty nail
and get confused and saddened when
i do not do what i say?